Scan Results
I don't know how many times I've thought my latest ache and pain is an indication that my cancer has started growing again. Or how many times I've felt foolish upon finding out my scans looked fine and my latest ache and pain was nothing. Such is the life of a cancer patient.
And then you get bad news, and you wish you were back in the scenario of feeling foolish for worrying about nothing. Such was the case with Monday's scans. My oncologist called with the news that I have multiple new spots throughout my spine, ribs, and pelvis. The clinical trial drug has stopped working for me and it's time to find another treatment plan.
My oncologist said the new metastases are likely the source(s) of my increased pain, pressing on the muscles around them and causing the muscles to spasm, so he called in a muscle relaxer that I started last night. I haven't gotten relief yet, but I'm hopeful. I certainly don't want to use them long-term, so I'm praying there's another option, perhaps radiation.
The next steps in determining my new treatment plan are for me to get a bone biopsy to see if my cancer has the PIK3CA mutation, which would make me eligible for a targeted drug called Piqray. I've heard this is a hard drug and some of my friends have opted out of using it because of the side effects. I'm not sure yet if I'll go for it anyway; it doesn't seem to do any good to worry before I find out if I have the mutation. That is tomorrow's worry and, as Matthew 6:34 says, "Tomorrow has enough trouble of its own."
If I don't have the mutation, my oncologist's recommendation is that I switch to Afinitor. I still need to do more research on both of these options but am just trying to process the news right now. Having previously gone five years on one treatment, needing to change after five months is a huge disappointment. It is scary to think that I might not get more than five months on any of my next treatments and/or that my side effects will get less and less bearable.
This was the verse of the day yesterday and it was such a good reminder:
Katherine, I have been praying for you every night for months and will continue. Now, I will pray that your doctor can find a new long-lasting treatment with few side effects. May God continue to be with you every day . . . . Linda Collins (LCA parent)
ReplyDeleteKatherine, covering you in prayer that God's arms would hug you so tight and that you clearly know He's got you! May the Spirit lead you to the best choice....
ReplyDeletePraying for you to get relief my friend. Your outlook on life and the twist it has given this week is amazing. Your hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and his righteousness.😘🥰
ReplyDeleteYou are in our prayers Katherine. The Hewers, friends from so long ago in California.
ReplyDeleteContinuing to lift you up in prayer and for wisdom and discernment as you make your next decisions on treatment. Giving praise to God for all He has done thus far and will do. What a Mighty God we serve! I love God's word and that He chose to share those with you ❤, "So we do not lose hope..." God is a The God of Love, Peace, so many things and Hope! " Trust in,lean on rely on... Him at all times"..."He is our Fortress!" Psalm 62:8
ReplyDeleteLove you friend ��
Nichole Carson
Thanks for sharing these honest and vulnerable thoughts. Is it all going to be ok? Do those that sow in tears truly reap in joy? Almighty God, You know the cries of your children and Christ was no stranger to grief. Thank you for Your presence.
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